| LOLZ OOPDATE! |
[Jul. 21st, 2007|10:16 pm] |
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so im sitting in my room. on my laptop. thats burning a hole through this pillow on my lap. and watching family guy dvds..
awesome.
i was just reading my updates like last year and i was a total whiner.. kind of embarrassing really.. theres never really anything new anymore. i get up, go to work, go home and change and go back to work.. its become so normal to work so much that on my days off (such as today) i feel like i've wasted a week.. i DID however clean out my car, and it smells fantastic.
alright so im still gonna whine. because thats what livejournal is for.. basically..
so ive been taking this medication called concerta for about 4 months and ive seen a drastic change in my mood. im not easy going and happy go lucky anymore. im angry all the time and i snap at people for no reason.. i just want to go away.. get a vacation. by myself.
someone give me money for tattoos. i need more. |
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[Jun. 20th, 2006|10:53 pm] |
ok, scenario time. sit down and absorb this. let it soak in.
alright, here goes.
one day you wake up and realize that you are extremely late for work, the reason you know is because you can see the sunlight you through your window. you take a look at your battery powered alarm clock and its blinking 3:56. you try to adjust the time but nothing works. you push all the buttons, all the mode combinations but nothing seems to work. you take the batteries out to try to fix it and as you place the clock on the desk to switch out the batteries you see that the clock is still blinking 3:56. you grab the house phone off of the cradle on the dresser near your bed and press the talk button to dial your employers number. there is no dial tone. you think to yourself maybe you didnt
pay the electric bill on time, but then you remember that you did because you had written it down on a pad of paper near the lamp on your dresser. you are a little freaked out so you try your cell phone. you try to call your friends but your cell phone has absolutely no service and the screen keeps blinking on and off. you cant fix it even though you know how because you try to take the battery out to examine it and it still blinks on and off. you take it completely apart and use your knowledge of cell phone repair but nothing seems to do the trick. you begin to put it back together and as you do a sharp piece of the plastic battery covering jabs you in the hand as you try to force it back on. you get irritated with it and you throw it against the wall. it starts to make a fuzzy sound and and wont stop. you wrap the cell phone in towels and put it in a trash bag so the sound isnt quite so piercing. you walk to your kitchen and throw it away. the soft buzz of the cell phone is still audible. you walk out of the room into the living room. as you turn the corner the tv suddenly jolts on. a news anchor is yapping about something in which you dont pay much attention to, you just scramble to the couch to find the remote. you throw pillows and clothes on the floor and finally find it in between the couch cushions. you immediately aim it at the screen and push the power button. nothing happens. the anchor is still rambling about something. you try to change the channel but every channel is the same channel. the same news channel, the same news anchor. you finally give up and start listening to what the anchor is talking about. shes talking about a nationwide technology failure. all cars are stopped on highways and cannot seem to be restarted. people are bewildered as to what to do and seek shelter because the sky looks as if a huge storm will appear at any moment. out of pure curiosity you grap your keys off the kitchen counter and run outside to see if your car was maybe the only one to be a working automobile. as you run outside you see that the sky is very overcast and about to storm, just like on tv. you push the unlock button but nothing happens. unsurprised and a little frustrated, you go to the door and unlock it manually. you step inside your car and it smells like something was just burned. you insert your key into the ignition and turn it. nothing happens. no click no nothing. you decide to check your engine just in case. you push the hood button and the hood pops open. you get out and examine the engine. everything looks fine and looks just like you left it. you take a look around your street and see that everyone else is outside staring at the sky quietly conversing with their families about this extremely odd occurance. something catches your attention in the corner of your eye, a sharp flash in the sky. you keep your focus on the sky and then you see the flashes a few more times. you realize that the flashes are in a certain pattern so you start to keep your focus on that. the flashes are becoming larger and more noticeable. you glance to your left and right and you see that everyone else is looking at the flashes in a trance. you yell to one of your neighbors to make conversation about it. they do not move. not one flinch. they all look like mannequins with tilted heads and gaping mouths. when you are examining the people around you, you notice a thunderous clap in the distance. the clap keeps rumbling and doesnt seem to end. then, a sudden burst of wind knocks you off your feet and a wall of water blind sides you out of nowhere. you tumble and flip in the water and luckily are not knocked out. you finally get your balance in the water and start towards the surface to breach for air. your head starts to feel light as you scramble towards the top. you surface and suck in a lung full of air. sweet oxygen. you think to yourself. as you wipe the water off of your eyes and finally focus on whats going on around you, you see that your neighbors and other people floating lifeless at all your sides. as you tread water and search for an object to float on, you see that a giant shadowy figure zooms underneath you. a chill shoots up your spine and you start to panic. you start flailing towards the nearest rooftop, and instead of calmly pacing yourself towards safety you wear yourself out because your heart is beating twice as fast and fear is coursing through your body. you feel relief because you are close to a safe rooftop to rest on. but before you reach arms length to the roof you feel a sudden jerk on your leg and are taken underwater from something with a great deal of force. before you could scream it let go. you scramble for the surface but something is hindering you from getting there. you finally surface and you notice that your left leg is numb. you look down and you see an aura of blood around your body. you cant see anything below your waist and you still cant feel your leg. you balance yourself in the water and raise your thigh up out of the water and you stare horrified at your stumpy leg gushing blood at every angle. you start to feel light headed again but you swim as fast and as hard as you can. your adrenaline takes over and you finally reach a grocery store roof. by some rare and miraculous strike of luck you are jerked out of the water by a coast guard hanging from a chopper above you. you are then sent to a hospital in a state with a higher altitude that hasnt been destroyed by the flood.
you awake in a hospital with your friend casey at your side holding a handful of flowers. as your eyes focus you realize that it is casey and you smile. he smiles back, glances at your leg and starts to laugh. you suddenly remember what happened, but instead of getting upset you are thankful that you are still alive and start to laugh a little. it hurts to laugh. you look at him and say, "Thank you, Casey".
he looks at you confused and asks "Why thank you?"
"For the advice you gave me, it was the only way i survived and that i am here right now," he replied. "So i am thankful"
he pauses in confusion and looks at you and asks, "What advice? What are you talking about?!"
you smile and pause, look down at your chest and whisper "One kick leg, one kick leg"
casey laughs and pats you on the head. he then replies "Anytime, dude."
you still feel weary and tired from the experience you had so you rest your head back and fall asleep.
i hope you enjoyed that. it took me an hour and a half. and i also hope you learned something.
always remember, ONE KICK LEG!
-casey! |
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| jeaorb! |
[May. 10th, 2006|01:09 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  anxious | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Beastie Boys | ] |
i got a new job!
still at panera. workin two jobs. one is SUPER busy and high strung, and the other is just a chill job. so i'll balance myself out.
im currently working at tanks a lot. theres some getting used to, especially with the people, but i think ill enjoy it after i settle in. ill be making more there than at panera so i think ill stick with that after the summer. |
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| eh |
[May. 6th, 2006|01:20 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  indescribable | ] |
I am in one of the weirdest moods ever. i took a nap right after a phone conversation to kayley around 6 saying that i'd text her when i wake up or she'll text me when i wake up. after i woke up around 11 i thought that she was still sleeping so i didnt text her until she woke up to text me. i still havent heard from her. i just saw the movie Stir Of Echoes and all i can think about is paranormal stuff happening right now. i mean, think about it. you wake up at 11pm no one is awake, all the lights are off in the house, and no one is making a sound. no one calls no one texts.. i always have a constant fear of being the only one left on earth. i walk around town and see no one, hear no one, just the sound of the lights buzzing and the wind whipping against my ears. i want to get on AIM but i somehow want to stay in this mood.
im also afraid that my family will wake up as zombies and the only reason i wasnt turned was because i was sleeping during the change. only to wake up with a house full of zombie family members. left defenseless with only a pocket knife and a set of keys. WHY DO I WATCH SO MANY MOVIES!? i hate that my imagination runs rampant.
i want to go back to sleep but i feel like i dont have to. i always count hours of sleep i need or hours i think i'll have and debate whether or not i'll have enough sleep for the day tomorrow. i just took a 5 hour nap. i have to get up around 9. its 1:30 right now and i cant sleep. mostly because im scared of this movie and the fear that i let kayley down by not texting her. i dont know, maybe if i go to sleep around 5 and wake up at 9 ill have a total of 9 hours of sleep all together.
all the sheets are off my bed and the lights just flickered. its a different thought process when things arent the way they usually are. i usually have a set thought process before i go to bed. i lay down on my left side and put half the sheets in between my legs and think about whatever is on my mind until i fall asleep. but im afraid of what the thoughts will be before i fall asleep because of what is going through my head right now. i dont want to go to sleep. i keep having this weird vision of a handprint on the computer screen and its really freaking me out. my fish keep splashing the top part of the water and its startling me... its not helping! i dont want to believe in ghosts but there is still that subconcious thought of the odds that they are really real. and im thinking of that right now.
i want the sun to come up now so that i dont think about things when its dark and freak myself out. do you ever get those weird pinches throughout the day on random parts of your body? maybe its God telling you not to do something, or a ghost telling you that they are present. i always think of that when it happens. what if it is.. what if what if what if..
I'm getting on AIM. and praying for clarification. |
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| blah |
[Apr. 26th, 2006|11:09 pm] |
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| |  crappy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | sd;lfnslaknslghansdlknhadhdggdsdsffsdfasdfsd | ] |
a lot has been going on inside mr caseys head.
im a bad friend.
we had our one acts for the theater class last night and tonight. thanks for coming to the play... whoever reads this and went to see me... which is.. one of you... thanks wife.
im such a bad friend.
im so tired. i just want to sleep for days. i dont want to be social for a while. i want to be a hermit until i can find myself again. i only hurt other people. its not what i want at all.
sleeeeeeeep..
pizza is IN the oven.
i miss kevin, brittany, and stephen... like A LOT. i think its time for me to go pay them a visit. when school is over. and i have time.. which is never.. ugh. i need a hug. i need reassurance that everything will be ok. im such a baby.
guh.. |
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 20th, 2006|12:47 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  drained | ] |
| [ | music |
| | BEASTIE BOYS - Johnny Ryall | ] |
i wrote this via myspace in a message. im lazy so i just copied and pasted...
ok.. we ALWAYS run out of bread right?.. its kinda expected at a BREAD restaurant. and people yell at us like its our fault that the bakers dont bake enough bread. it really makes me happy..
*oh, i just got your text about not being able to hang out tomorrow. and im extremely upset.*
also, today some guy ordered some vegetable soup. he got the last bit of soup that we had.. and he then he came back with the soup half eaten and says "uh, i can i get some more soup? this was too cold.." then I say "sorry sir, we dont have anymore of this particular soup. can i get you something else instead?" (right after we said to him in the first place that what he had the last of it..) then he says "no, i dont want anything *sigh* well.. can i have a knife?" i look down to give him a knife and there were none to be found.. and the girl that was SUPPOSED to be doing all these dishes is ON BREAK! (side note:me and the girl on sammich line did NOT get any breaks.. but the girl who we needed that cleaned the plates and bowls WE NEEDED to get our job done went on break.. great job) i ran in the back and there werent any clean in the back either. but i later found out that there were some in the bakery. so i apologize to him and i was about to offer him a plastic knife but his wife cut in and sighed and just asked for another fork. GOD I HATE WHEN PEOPLE SIGH AT ME. and then when i gave it to her she rolls her eyes and walks away.. then the guy was like "I cant believe that a place like this doesnt have soup or clean silverware ready for customers.... " then he went off on some tangent that i wasnt listening to and then walked away. then after he ate his food in disgust he went up to the counter and talked to one of the MOD's and i guess asked for a refund.. or some free shit because he is a stupid bastard that has no life. so then he comes back up with a jones soda and is like "well can i have this?" and the manager was trying to be nice to him and he agreed.. and i think he got a gift card or something along with that. i hate scum suckers like him.
oh and i also hate when people come in like 10 minutes before we close.. when we have everything restocked cleaned and saran wrapped ready for tomorrow... then we have to take everything off and make their sandwich and or salad... but they people who ordered were really nice and just asked for it all to go.
friday friday friday! cant wait.
i love the beastie boys. |
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 18th, 2006|10:05 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  happy, but it wont last! | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The Strokes - 15 Minutes | ] |
ok, so ive had a lot of help from a special source to sort out my life and my stressful situations. and im feeling so good about my plans of getting over blah blah certain people. im actually feeling really happy right now, thanks to the advice and the strokes.
i love my friends.
on a great note, i got a new fish! hes a little sketchy.. hes scared of me when i approach the tank but he thinks hes king of the aquarium and is mighty aggressive towards the other fish.. and i think i might have to take him back. here is his mug shot..
im seeing silent hill with miss sarah jenna, my wife. im VERY excited. to say the least..
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| Brittany Belda r00lz! you F00L |
[Apr. 13th, 2006|12:40 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  tired | ] |
| [ | music |
| | "will the real CASEY ALLEN please stand up." | ] |
Seeing as how i havnt posted in a bit..........
Wanna see some pictures...?
GREAT
 i need to go here soon.
 i miss these folks
 LURCH!!!!
ok i think its obvious brittany is posting for me...
--casey, i love you---
brittany, i love you!!
hahaha
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| hokay, so |
[Mar. 30th, 2006|12:18 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | exhausted | ] |
| [ | music |
| | my fan and aquarium.. and me typing. this insert. still goin | ] |
alright, so the court date for today was cancelled. and all we have to do is go to the april 19th court date and wait for a letter to come in the mail about PTI or something.
1)pay our costs for whaturver
2)do community service
3)write apology letters and suck ass like crazy
4)EXPUNGEMENT! YAY!
tonight was sorta hectic on the sammich line.. andrew pace was working with me and didnt do squat. so i got frustrated and shoved a spatula through his eyes. he deserved it.. i had to close down the sammich line, and then i helped with closing dish, and part of the dining room... twas a rough night.. but it has just begun.. im gonna go back a few years and sneak out of the house tonight with amy and ashley.. haha i feel like im in high school again.. i just hope i dont get caught.. im sure wont get in any mondo trouble.
waiting....
im seriously so happy right now. i mean, apposed to the grief i had to bear with the break up i think its a pretty radical change and i love it. i love my friends. i love my outta state friends too. they are awesome. and im doing really well with catherine now, im slowly getting pushed away from her and merging into friendship. which is awesome because thats what it should have been in the first place. dont get me wrong, i love catherine and i dont regret anything that happened but i think things would have turned out so much better if we had just stayed friends.
AGH im so tired. |
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[Mar. 24th, 2006|12:43 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  shhh santa is sleeping. | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Bonobo - Change Down | ] |
last night i had to close. since there werent that many people closing that night i had to help with the dining room and bakery. i still love it there. the people are very fun.
juicy part: so i walk outside and find out that my so-called friends vandalized my car. so i put all my crap (crap = shirt, hat, nametag, and bag o goodies from the bakery.. basically everything i need to work) on the roof of my car.. i wash most of it off and then start talking to my friend who got the same thing done to her car. we talked for a little bit and then some of the bakers came out to talk.. we stood there for a good 20 minutes then i decide to leave. i get in my car and head out.. you are probably wondering why its a juicy part. well, if you'd like to direct your attention to the part where it says "so i put all my crap on the roof of my car.." you'll find out that i never said that i put my crap in my car. so. on the way home i realized that i hadnt done that and had a little panic attack. so i stopped at the bowling alley and looked on the roof.. NOTHING THERE! so i go back and retrace my steps.. er tire marks i guess.. but i couldnt find anything at all.. le sigh..
lucky for me i have awesome friends! ashley gave me her old shirt and gregg gave me a new hat and pin.. i have to get another nametag though.. but im sure that wont be too much of a hassle..
um, so me and melanie went to fat kats and set up an appointment for her tattoo shes getting that I DREW FOR HER! well, its a bouncing souls heart... but i still drew it! then we went to taco bell and drew pictures of hitler and camels and tattoo art and sharks and stuff with sharpies. which bled through the table.. then some creepy guy came in and asked us where some apartment complex was.. we tried to help him but he gave up on us. then we went to panera before it closed and i got my hat and a chocolate chip muffin! it was fantastic. then we drove to walmart listening to american nightmare and screaming our lungs out. we played in walmart and then left to go home. we talked about deep things and it made me feel good to at least TRY to help..
i went home and watched the trailer for silent hill.. i cannot WAIT to see this movie. ive waited too long.
and im not tired cause i just drank a whole can of dr pepper. go me. |
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| gdfgdfg |
[Mar. 22nd, 2006|01:36 pm] |
im a fishy father again!
as of today the baby fish have ventured out of the house. with the care of the mom of course.
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| wasstedddd |
[Mar. 21st, 2006|08:01 pm] |
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| |  cranky | ] |
what a complete waste of a day. i wait all day for the fair-fun-a-palooza and then dad-o wants to keep me here cause he doesnt want me to waste money or gas. lame lame lame. i understand but i got all excited for nothing. i wasted a whole day doing nothing.
WHERE IS EVERYBODY!?!!! |
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| 5PR1NG BR34K!!!1121!@ |
[Mar. 21st, 2006|12:19 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  bored | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Bonobo - Light Pattern | ] |
spring break!!! WOOOOO!!!.. and yet i have NOTHING planned.
someone hang out with me.. i dont work on thrusday and i dont work friday or saturday night....
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happy note! im going to the fair tonight with JessMasterFlex and maybe some other churrins. |
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| F U C K |
[Mar. 20th, 2006|11:04 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  worried | ] |
| [ | music |
| | bonobo - Sleepy Seven | ] |
well, today i was just informed that the charges have NOT been dropped. the public defender told us wrong but he said that he will have a withhold of adjudication on a misdemeanor if the restitution would be paid in advance.. the restitution will equal to about $1500 split between the four of us. so... we got our hopes up.. and it just sunk.. i dont know why i would think that we could get off THIS easy. we're just gonna have to wait for the court hearing to find out exactly what we are facing.
all this law stuff is way too confusing. and its a pain in the bootyhole for everyone to have to try to understand it. but i know that God IS in control with this.. just keep thinking/praying about/for us.
ugh.. im so down right now.. i need a healthy dose of positivity.
on a more happy note, i bought a shark kite today. so if anyone wants to fly kites with me just call and or text and or IM me and we will do that faster than a rabbit on a hot skillet in the middle of the mohave desert in the heat wave of july.
someone give me a hug!
[edit]: i feel like im completely drained. emotionally and physically. i know that this is probably really stupid to hear but it sucks so bad to have such high hopes and then shot right back down in a single conversation. in a single sentence. "so, did you hear? we heard wrong, the charges have not been dropped" i just want to sleep forever. i want people to come in and visit me. i am so emo right now. sotp it besh! |
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| panera > marion county clerks office |
[Mar. 19th, 2006|10:32 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | drained | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Movie? the mighty ducks | ] |
today was so much fun.
i cant wait till my next day. everyone i work with is awesome, they are very helpful, and very fun to be around... and im probably gonna regret saying all this in a week
i am so exhausted!
thanks for all the good luck's and "i miss your sweet head" texts today. and the awesome card SOS made for me today.
IM LE TIRED! |
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| OH YESH |
[Mar. 19th, 2006|12:05 am] |
and i start work tomorrow. send me lots of lurky texts saying good luck and i love you and miss your sweet head.
er something....
PLEASE!!??!?!! |
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| new hair doo |
[Mar. 18th, 2006|11:57 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | zombied | ] |
| [ | music |
| | i wish i was listening to the kinison | ] |
"...i got a new pair of shoes
i know this new way to dance
i got this new haircut
i got this new pair of slacks.."
i had a dream about buying chocolate donuts at walmart for $.29 in a hotel. someone tell me what that means.
ill give you a dollar! and a handful of fruit snacks. |
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| yikes |
[Mar. 17th, 2006|09:47 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | bored | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Bonobo | ] |
since my phone is a piece of trash.... i got a new phone!
hooray!
PS i am in love with Bonobo |
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| agh |
[Mar. 16th, 2006|12:03 am] |
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| |  SO EXCITED! | ] |
i love my friends!
so i skipped class and hung out with jenna, emily, jacob and simone at the villages. we ate at johnny rockets and had a waiter that was waaaayyy too happy to be there.. it was sorta frightening.. then the girls went shopping and me and jacob stood outside and talked about man stuff. that kid seriously never makes me not laugh. after that i went home for a little while and then headed to church to play drums for the youth praise band.. in which i severely sucked at.. then went to college group.. i doodled while we talked.. and then we went to steak n shake and had terrible service but since i love my friends it was awesome.... so i had an amazing day today.. the weather was fantastic.. and i love my friends..
oh, and on a GRRRRRRRRRREEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAT AWESOME AMAZING SPECTACULAR NOTE!!!!
[00:05] wastedyouth nigg: The charges have been dropped!
[00:06] wastedyouth nigg: Between the 4 of us we'll have to pay 1,000-1,600 dollars but split between us
agh! so excited.. im getting back to being happy! the old casey is truckin through.... yyay!
someone give me a high five! |
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| ok |
[Mar. 15th, 2006|12:04 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  mischievous | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Richard Cory - Don't Hate | ] |
i dont feel like going to school, instead i think im gonna hang out with some ladies and listen in on some gossip.
so, i got a job at panera on monday right? then the NEXT DAY some lady from Tanks-A-Lot (the place i would have wanted to work) calls me up and asks if i wanted an interview.. i said nah bitch you had your chance and then hung up... no just kidding, i think i might have a chance to work there part time during the summer.. if so i would be so very happy. cause i love fish.. and everyone already knows that.
i think ive made it a habit that i dont go to bed till after 12. i have to watch family guy dvds, eat chips, and drink gatorade before i actually zonk out..
yeah. |
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